how do we make sense of the world and the situations in which we find ourselves? when we are alone it seems we begin to crave moments, sensations and physical comforts like touch. after almost two years I am still not completely at ease on my own - maybe no one ever is. as humans, is companionship an essential part of who we are? at our core, do we need someone to love in order to be satisfied? and in those moments without love, why is it so hard to be happy? but then again, happiness is relative. happiness, like life, is what you make of it. and yet there is something about today that makes me question our ability as humans to simply "be satisfied" regardless of where we find ourselves (alone, in a relationship, in between relationships). naturally and inherently we are creatures of comfort and attachment - attachment to anyone but the reality of ourselves.
wanting to forget, but never being able to truly let go - this is the curse of attachment. so how do we make sense of it? we must confront reality - with or without someone our days go on and on. we might as well make the best of each day and trust that life will work out.
in the greater scheme of things, today is just one day. who knows what tomorrow will bring. make hope your mainstay and never stop believing that tomorrow will bring something better.
- thoughts from the beach park 10/4/09
